I met a wonderful fantastic person who has set the bar for other people for me. I can truly say I am in love with him. Small problem though, he’s married.
Today on FB, a girl I was in high-school with is getting ready for her wedding tomorrow. She sounds so happy, ecstatic and in love. She will look so radiant tomorrow, so happy, walking towards the man she loves, and who loves her.
That is what I want. To walk towards the man I love, hold his hand, before family and friends without feeling like I’m crap, or like I’m being judged because of the obvious ring on his finger and my lack of it. What do I do? I love him, he loves me. I know he does. His actions speak louder than any words he could ever say. He looks at me like I’m the best thing that ever happened to him. He makes me feel special, he is so awesome. He treats me like a queen.
I just don’t receive from him. He’s the only guy who I have never felt like he’s taking advantage. I gladly wake up early and make his breakfast, and meals. I don’t mind making him his favorite dish. I don’t mind spending my money buying him a nice pair of jeans, or shirt because I think he’d look nice in it.
Mostly, he loves my kid. And my kid puts up with him, as much as a 4 year old can anyway. The only downside to all this is, I can’t have him. I can’t present him to my dad.
Why is it this way? The perfect person for me who can never be mine. Cruel joke!