Because i can’t verbally articulate to anyone how i feel. So i write it.

This period has been trying, and not just because of the Covid. This period, this year, has been a nightmare for my personal life. More and More, i’m despairing.

Today i read a story on Bikozulu’s blog. I love his writing. A man going through what he’s calling “an emotionally abusive marriage”. This is when someone holds your emotions hostage. Has your heart by the balls.

I think its happening to me. He is doing that to me. I hate it. I want out. I think i want out. I know i don’t want to be alone.

Please God, Help me.